.Thursday, May 13, 2010 ' 5:31 PM Y
today was a bad day! everything turns out badly for me. im really super no mood so i apologised first before i offend you, because im going to do so, so if you dislike it, simply click the cross up there as you know. going to stadium early in the morning, dad woke up because somebody called me, wtf. next, texted kaili that they meet me at my blk, but they didnt, stupidly i waited there for so long with so many onlookers, called them and they said they reached stadium, FUCK! i walked there quickly and reached le they ask me to go quickly, say why i wake up so late. i woke up at 10 specially to prepare okay, if i dont bother about it, i could have sleep till 2! i shouted at them that we are supposed to meet under my block, and yet they went here first and claim that im slow. hey fuck you, see who's wrong first kay. And you gave me that fucking face isit?! well, forget it, i tolerate. went to ran for 2 rounds, i ran for relieving my stress as well as to slim down i guess. then changed and walked to jp, they couldnt decide where to eat, met janet anyway. finally settled at mac and yet they went off suddenly saying joanna's brother was sent to hospital. you didnt make it that clear and i was so blur. then finally you blurt out you were lying, u think its fun?! i wanted to shop at jp one you know, and janet was left alone at jp. so what's with the truth? is there a need to rush back home like this?! not angrying with you both lying. then kaili bought her meal and went to joanna's hse, we sang songs once again. i feel so dull all of the sudden. i couldnt explain why either. joanna suggested going out to walk. so we went to gp, and kaili bought her bbtea. then they want to go to joanna's playground, but i dont want, i want to go to a playground with swing, her playground wasnt that interesting. but in the end they insisted going there, so i left for home. walked home, thinking through things. joanna said whatever things that made me fed up. be carefree?! you knew nothing about how i feel, so of course you say that so easily. you are fortunate in everything, and you seems always to deny that fact, and seems to be disatisfied! see how u are going to survive if you were me. there's is always so much to troubled with. you have no right to ask me not to think about the troubles, because things that happened, always cant be altered. you dont know how this feels, so shut the fuck up. not trying to get sympathy or whatever else people may think. what i wrote is my business, not happy with it, kill me then! i will be glad to die and i will thank you for ending my life.
