.Tuesday, May 25, 2010 ' 10:36 PM Y
i feel so mixed, i seriously dont want to continue my life. hey it sucks! okay i was sick now, seriously sick(: but i hate it when i dont get fever. ): so today i had been coughing all day long, and my throat real hurts. its not that i wanted to scream at you all or seems to talk that loud, it is just that i couldnt hear how loud i was, and my throat hurts, i cant talk normally, i had to scream to get the normal voice volume, get it? anyway, i think im gonna burst one of my blood vessels anytime, then coughing out blood, LOL! cause i somehow taste blood, but not sure where it came from. hahaha, maybe my life isnt that long, i could have cystic fibroses, (i should have spelt wrongly) an illness which that people will die anyway, eh no everyone dies, so its about people dying in an earlier age, yep. i got those symptoms i think, haha! ops. okay this is not a laughing matter, cause im feels so terrible, i wish i can get rid of whatever that is unhealthy in my body with a vacuum machine, vacuum them all out LOL! okay, feeling so down today, because i was..pissed somehow. haha. went straight home after school and eat cause im hungry, kay stupid. then i was walking around the house, nothing better to do yeah, so i finally decided to eat again haha! omgosh, thats why im fat -.- then dad went out and im happy yeah. then went to pm to buy some colours papers with my meimei and then i sat at my table doing the farewell card. yeah im the welfare committee in dance, and i need to do some work, thats some bitch says. i wanted to quit, but the teacher refuses, i hate her. so i was happily decorating but not until my dad came back again, asked my to keep his clothes into his wardrobes, doesnt he has hands? then not after a while, he asked me and my mei to go his room, and there, he started his lecture and he goes saying stuffs that we shouldnt know or rather its more inappropriate for my mei, hey dad thats not the right way to teach about sex education -.- so pissed with him with his remarks about my mum, i know he is the one who got affair and accuses my mum doing so. i can never forget what i had saw when im young, NEVER! then he teaches all the super superstitious stuffs he learnt from whatever book or thing he has, crappy. i was daydreaming not listening, and thinking about the design of the farewell card cause it wasnt done then. then he is soo not thinking, how would we use his ways to settle things in such a technology advance future. he says that heart attack and stuffs are untrue, its because got people curse. -.- i prefer to believe western than erm..chinese thingy. hahaha, okay now i was pissed and also disgusted by what he said, yucky! oh yeah, i wasnt sure what hmk we had today lol, any forms need sign? i dont wish to come back to school on thurs. my mei suggested going out, im with it. okay, bye now!
